Peace


There is just something about the peace of Christ that surpasses every feeling in this world. As I grow up and move out into the adult world I am truly starting to realize how important it is to have peace. I have had a roller coaster of ups and downs here, and an ever-raging war in my heart.  I thank God for his peace because without that I would not be able to do what he has called me here to do, love on his children.  I praise God for being slow to anger, having mercy, and giving out grace like it is a gift.  I strive to have these qualities more and more every day. Please believe me when I say that there is just something about the reality of world hunger and poverty that hits you all at once. When it hit me, it hit me hard without relenting. I immediately felt incapable, empty, and like I was longing for water within the dessert. I have prayed every day for peace and for this war within my heart to end. It wasn’t until this weekend that I had truly given everything to the one who holds my heart, Jesus Christ. If you had told me that moving to the Dominican Republic would be this difficult before I left, I don’t think I would have gone. The old me would have unpacked my bags and sat in my bed thinking of what to do next.  But here I am growing stronger within my God, in a country that is not my own. But please know this has been the most amazing three months of my life. I am growing spiritually stronger every day, growing in boldness, finding myself, and starting to see the pieces of my life come together.  As I am sitting here writing this post I am looking out up into the mountains, covered in little houses. If my God can put these mountains in place, and care for each person placed in the scattered villages, who am I? My God is bigger then all my problems, all my burdens, all my fears, and all my insecurities. You know what? Praise God, because I have so many problems, burdens, fears, and insecurities. I can’t be a mom to 30 children without him. I thank Jesus for changing me slowly from the inside out and making me a new creation in him. I thank Jesus for giving me a peace in my heart and loving those who don’t love me. I thank Jesus for helping me surrender my all to him. I challenge you all to look to every person with the love of Christ, to discover yourself in our savior, but most importantly make the difference in someone’s life through The Gospel.  Thank you for all your support, love, and care packages. It truly makes all the difference for Grace and I. We couldn’t do it without all your prayers, love, and encouraging words. The boys are doing great and receiving all the love Grace and I have to give. We ask that you continue to pray for this orphanage and our strength.